Good morning :))) hope you had beautiful dreams last night!! I was dreaming and obsessing about food the whole night!! cookies, cakes and cheeseburgers!! Yes I do have sleep issues and ever since I was little I had a hard time falling asleep. The sheep counting thing doesn't work for me at all! I tried to change that story and had myself counting how many laps I could swim. I don't like swimming that much, so how I came up with that story, beats me!! The thing is I was lap swimming in the ocean! Does that make sense?!
Maybe that's why I feel tired in the morning. Too much exercising! See! I knew exercising is bad for you!!
We'll have no more of that!
Well, I was supposed to wake up my sister this morning and instead got in bed with her like a zombie and fell asleep next to her and Daisy decided to join us and there we were all three of us on her bed in deep sleep! My sister gets up an hour later and starts laughing " real good one sis!" lol
When I lived in the U.S I would exhibit my work at least six times a year. I am a pro at this, but always, and with no exception after each show I would feel this letdown, a very strange feeling almost like a depression. A very weird and scary feeling... Thank God it doesn't last long and I now know it's temporary so I don't panic anymore.
I had talked to my mom about it when it first happened and as we all know "mom knows best" and she said that it was all the preparation I was making for my shows and all the attention I would get from the public. Because lets face it, as artists that's what we're looking for. Attention.Approval. Being isolated in the studio, for weeks at a time, trying my very best to bring my visions to life, well that's draining in the end. Then to present my work to the public and getting all that attention at once... Too much and it lasts only for a few days. My mom said " oh honey, do you feel like a movie star?" lol! My mom is funny in that way! "Yes, mom! I do feel like a star!! Everybody coming up to me and telling me how they love my work and how happy it makes them feel but then... I have to go back to my studio and be isolated again!! LOL
Don't take me wrong, I love my work and being here alone in my little world is my happiness, I just want you to know that it's normal to feel this way after an exhibition, pro or no pro.